"Wanting to Love" by Ding Dang
♫ The goddess is cutely lazy ♫
♫ Her ups and downs are just too cute ♫
♫ Whatever schemes there are, let's be crazy together ♫
♫ Why get to the point of a showdown? ♫
♫ Why don't we just forget it? ♫
♫ I don't want it ♫
♫ It's not worth it ♫
♫ I just want to be in love ♫
♫ I don't want love for love ♫
♫ The harm from being single is high ♫
♫ The heavens rarely bring about endings ♫
♫ I just want to be in love ♫
♫ I want to be dazed ♫
♫ Weird spirits please get away from me ♫
♫ Found my ideal partner ♫
♫ I just want to be in love ♫
♫ I don't want love for love ♫
♫ The harm from being single is high ♫
♫ The heavens rarely bring about endings ♫
♫ I just want to be in love ♫
♫ I want to be dazed ♫
♫ Weird spirits please get away from me ♫
♫ Away from Cloud 9 ♫
Episode 3
This is what happened between us previously.
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It's you?
Hi.
Eavesdropping?
What do you mean "eavesdropping?"
I just happened to pass by.
Just happened to pass by and stopped to listen for so long.
I finished an entire song.
So what? I can't listen?
Are you collecting fees? Or are you some celebrity?
Why are you so self-absorbed?
You've asked so many questions, so which question do you want me to answer?
Alright. Firstly, you can listen. Welcome.
Secondly, I don't charge.
But if you think it's nice, you can give me a treat.
Thirdly, I'm no celebrity.
I'm just very comfortable singing and love it.
Fourth, I'm not self-absorbed.
I'm extremely easy.
♫ Whatever schemes there are, let's be crazy together ♫
♫ Why get to the point of a showdown? ♫
Why are you acting cool?
Shooting off like that, do you think you are cool?
Am I cool?
Normally guys who claim to be cool, are not cool.
♫ The harm from being single is high ♫
♫ The heavens rarely bring about endings ♫
♫ I just want to be in love ♫
♫ I want to be dazed ♫
♫ Weird spirits please get away from me ♫
♫ Away from Cloud 9 ♫
So you are his first.
Or it may be his only one.
The one and only he loved but failed.
Come to think of it, I do pity him.
What is there to pity?
Those are in the past,
and I've already spoken to him.
He has someone in his heart now, doesn't he?
Looks like you've matured a little.
Thanks for the compliment, my dear psychiatrist.
I've taken all you've said into consideration.
Alright, I'll send you back to your clinic.
Then I'll make a detour
and send this over to that pitiful person.
Help me hold this.
♫ They will know, how perfect you are ♫
♫ They will know, they're so so wrong ♫
♫ My dear, don't be afraid to be different, ♫
♫ Differences make a different world ♫
Why is no one in? Has everyone gone home?
♫ And you-u-u just be you. Without... ♫
Jiang Xiao Qian.
Your office closes early?
They are all busy outside the office.
I just happen to be hungry and went out to grab a bite.
Why?
Oh... You left these in my car.
Didn't you realize?
Oh! So they were in your car.
I thought I left them in your husband's office.
This way please.
Please.
♫ And you-u-u just be you, ♫
♫ Without any change, with no different sides ♫
♫ And you-u-u just be you ♫
- You live here? - Yes, for the time being.
Please have a seat.
I have to finish up your husband's project before I have time to search for a new place.
I'm an easy person, so staying like this for the time being is fine.
Although it's messy, it is a controlled mess.
There's organization here.
You don't mind if I eat while chatting with you?
I'm famished.
Please eat.
Eh...
Am I disturbing you?
Don't worry. Go ahead.
I'm sorry. You don't like stinky tofu.
You are most afraid of this smell, aren't you?
Don't worry. Just eat. Just eat.
Although I still don't dare to eat this,
I'm alright with the smell now.
I recall you hate this the most.
As long as I have it, you will feel like murdering someone.
Why are you alright with it now?
Because my husband likes to eat it too.
So because of your husband, you changed yourself?
Times have changed.
I didn't do it because of my husband!
I did it for myself!
Alright. Alright. It's for yourself.
When you spoke so loudly just now though, you are a little like Jiang Xiao Qian.
In what way am I not like Xiao Qian now?
Well, when we first met,
you were very defensive and pretentious.
You thought you were so mature.
Talking about this makes me mad.
Does anyone call another person pretentious the moment they meet?
I'm extremely displeased about this.
Using "displeased" is more like Xiao Qian.
Now you are more like Xiao Qian.
Stop talking about my past.
Director He,
in future if you want to use our story,
can you at least notify me?
The two of us...
Did you flip through my script?
Excuse me. Are you displeased?
I'm not displeased.
But... Can I collect royalty fees in the future?
And can I add in my opinion?
Your script is really not up to par.
It should be more dramatic.
For example?
Like... There should be emphasis on the break up.
Like "Why must you do this?"
"Why must you humiliate me like this?"
"Why must you humiliate our love?"
Like that.
Jiang Xiao Qian, which drama have you been watching?
How can you say such frightening lines?
- Hey!- What...
We didn't have this segment back then!
We didn't at that time,
and you must have been clueless about yourself liking guys back then.
There you go again.
When are you going to stop harping on that nonsense?
- Didn't I explain it to you? - Ok, ok. I got it.
I got that you want to say, "I'm not."
- That's right - But you know and I know.
It's alright if you deny it.
You are so irritating.
In order to punish you,
I'll start eating the stinky tofu.
Please eat. Anyway, I've delivered what I needed to.
I'm leaving first.
I won't send you off.
Bye-bye.
How can it be?
How can you humiliate us? How can you humiliate our love?
How do I add that part?
I say that
working in a hospital is tiring. And when you return home, you still have to do the housework.
So hardworking. The young generation now,
girls like you are rare.
Thank you.
Hi.
Oh! Hi... You are?
Son, let me introduce you.
She is my best friend's,
Auntie Ma Li's, daughter.
She works as a nurse.
Gao Mama, I'm not a nurse.
I'm just an administrative clerk in the clinic.
Isn't it all the same? You work in a hospital.
There's no difference.
Gao Ding Ya.
Don't you know how to greet people?
Hi, I'm Gao Ding Ya.
I know you. I've seen you on TV.
Here, here. Take a seat.
I'm Wu Zi Zi.
The Zi from "Xiao You Zi Se" or the Zi from "Feng Zi Chuo Yue." (introducing the character for her name using phrases)
Zi Zi...
Oh... You are good at constructing sentences.
Your name... is really beautiful.
He complimented me on our first meeting.
I'm not beautiful. My friends used to call me Duck neck.
Duck neck?
Only when you eat duck neck do you go tsk tsk (sounds like Zi Zi.)
Zi Zi sound.
You are so humourous!
My son, Ding Ya, also enjoys duck necks.
Do I?
Don't you?
Oh dear. I know...
You are afraid that I'm in the way of your conversation.
Alright. I won't disturb you. I'll let you youngsters become friends.
Then tonight... Ding Ya's brother and sis-in-law are not coming back for dinner.
Then I'll cook for you guys. Don't sit here.
Go over to the living room. Go have a chat.
Go chat and get to know each other.
Gao Mama, let me help you.
There's no need.
Your mom told me that you are great wife material
and will help out with housework.
But if you want to be my daughter-in-law,
you have to follow
this rule: the kitchen is my territory.
I won't let you into my territory.
Mom, what are you saying?
I... I am just kidding!
Ha Ha Ha...
I'm not saying anything. I'm just kidding.
Ha Ha.
It isn't funny at all right? We are always like this.
Yes.
Our Ding Ya is really busy. He doesn't have time to date.
- So, during our chat yesterday, loneliness was mentioned.- Huh?
Yes, you did say you are lonely.
Zi Zi, then I'll look forward to you spending more time with him.
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Ding Ya, can I call you Ding Ya?
It feels like we are closer that way.
Didn't you already call me that?
There are some things we can't go easy on.
Then, you have to call me Zi Zi
Alright, Zi Zi.
That's great! I've checked your horoscope and you're a Sagittarius.
So you should be someone who like things to be speedy.
- You've searched for me? - I just googled. You can look up anyone you want.
Let me put it this way.
My mom brought me to the fortune teller.
He said that if I don't get married this year, I will have to wait another cycle of zodiac signs.
That is 12 years before I can meet a suitable match.
- So? - So...
I'm willing.
- You are willing? - Yes.
Wait, wait, wait... What are you willing to?
From now till year end, there's another 10 months.
So we can first spend half a year getting to know each other,
then we can get engaged and try out marriage for four months.
Then after trying it out, we can get married. Don't worry about the venue. I can settle it.
STOP!
My plan is very kind. Please listen till the end. I predict getting pregnant will take...
I said STOP! Don't you understand?
I don't care what my mom said to you.
No matter how well you planned, it is not my plan.
Do you understand?
I understand.
Hey... Do you know
you were so manly just now.
So, that film circulating online...
It must have been a joke, right?
I don't have to discuss that film with you, do I?
It's alright if you don't want to discuss it. Anyway, I already have a conclusion.
Conclusion is?
I... am willing to wait for you for 12 years.
12 years from now, I'll be 36 and still fertile. That way the plan can be lengthened.
Then we can try out being married for a longer time.
Aren't you in a rush?
If I can't get married, I'll have to check to see if you still want me in 12 years.
You don't have to throw yourself at me.
I really have no feelings for you.
You... You... You don't like me because I'm ugly?
No...
Actually...
Actually... I... The talk about the duck neck...
Can you tell I am laughing at myself?
This is bullying.
Laughing that I'm dumb, ugly and useless.
This I know.
Anyway, I'm not originally a chatty girl.
Miss Wu, please don't be like this.
I call you Ding Ya, but you call me Miss Wu.
That's your way of keeping your distance.
I know.
I've often been rejected. How could I not know?
You are good. You are OK.
There will be someone who appreciates you. It's just that he hasn't appeared.
So don't give up. It isn't your fault that I don't like you.
Really?
It's really no one's fault.
I think I just wrongly accused you.
Wrongly accused?
You really like guys right?
I...
Alright... Alright...
As long as you don't like me, and stop putting yourself down,
I'm alright with anything. I'm OK.
Tell my mom I won't be home to eat tonight.
Close the door.
Where's Ding Ya?
He went out.
How can he go out? I'll get him back.
Gao Mama, er... You calm down first...
Because... There are some things that can't be forced.
Can't be forced?
Do you mean...
Gao Mama... Let me tell you.
I think you should get Ding Ya to visit our clinic.
Our doctor should be able to help him.
I'll get you a shorter queue.
Xia Yi Qing
♫ Smiling with a mask on ♫
♫ Pretending you're strong, but you're actually more vulnerable ♫
♫ I just want to be in love, I want to be dazed ♫
♫ Weird spirits please get away from me, Away from Cloud ♫
Alright.
Yes, I understand.
Hello?
Zhang Da Pai's manager said
he won't take Jacky's mess. It seems that the rumours about them being unfriendly with each other are true.
What should we do now? We've tried a lot of people already.
Now we're delayed. Brother Quan prepare yourself.
If we are going to be delayed, then I don't know if I can get some of our prepayment
for the rental fee. Our spending will be over the limit.
Brother Quan, have you thought about using amateur actors?
- Amateur actors? - That's right!
Like some from the internet. Although they're not that famous,
and don't have much know-how, they like to act and film themselves. They also have quite a few viewers.
That's right! It's like you and Brother Ding Ya!
I don't want to hear this right now!
Ah Ru, that was well said.
Anyone who mentions that again, I will deduct one day's worth of pay.
Even if we don't mention it,
it doesn't mean it didn't happen.
Alright, let's get back on topic. We need to hurry and find the male lead, okay?
Fighting! Work hard!
Okay, Brother Quan. Then... are you fine with the amateur actors?
This...
I have someone in mind.
Although he's not a internet sensation, he likes to perform.
- Who is it? - My younger brother.
Your brother?
Let's go.
- Louder! - Rush over there!
Bang! Bang! Bang!
That was good. Next month is when we perform. After taking a five minute break, we'll rehearse again.
Okay.
- Is there a power outage? - No, the streetlights are still on.
Let me take a look outside.
Everyone stay calm. I'm going to call the building owner to see what's up.
That's strange. He's not picking up.
Xiao Kang!
- What? - Look at this! It was posted outside.
Mr. He Xiao Kang, as the one who rented this space, you've already missed three months worth of payments.
Please move out by the end of the month. Otherwise, it won't just be as simple as stopping electricity and water.
From the troubled building owner.
What should we do? Do you still have money?
Why would I have money? All I have left is three zeros in my account.
All of the money was used to rent the space to perform.
Then we're going to get kicked out like this? That can't be.
Ah, right! Why don't we practice under the bridge?
But then you won't have a place to sleep.
Don't worry about me.
There's still some time before the month ends, I can get around.
But He Xiao Kang, the lighting company called me and told me
that if we don't make a deposit for the lights next month,
then they'll lend it to someone else.
- Can't you talk it over with them more? - I tried already. It's not only the lights,
The stage, props and costumes all need deposits.
What should we do? What should we do?
Okay, okay. Don't worry everyone.
As the leader, I will ensure that we perform as scheduled, okay?
My older brother
Let me take a call.
Hello, Brother?
Huh? You want me to audition?
For your short movie?
Afterwards, I realized
what loneliness is.
Loneliness will come with longing and turn more clear,
just like this cup of water.
Especially in places with a lot of people...
The more people there are, the more hurt you feel.
In your heart, you think of only one person,
and yet that person isn't with you.
That person will never know
that at this very moment,
you're thinking about her.
Thinking about the past.
Thinking about those...
memories that you can't return to.
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Very good. Cut!
Not bad. No wonder you're in a theater group!
You're exaggerating too much!
I'm not like you, someone with no blood no tears.
I never thought Brother Quan's younger brother would be this outstanding either.
They really are family.
The part just now was OK.
When the female lead gets here you can adjust to her style.
So I got the role?
Yes.
Then let me ask, the female lead is...
Female lead...
Who is that?
This is this project's boss, the female lead's father.
Sorry, we're late. Everyone, please have some food.
Eat food?
Thank you.
You're Director He?
Yes, I am.
Xu Jian Chang.
Oh, President Xu. Hello, I'm He Xiao Quan. Sorry. I didn't know you were coming today.
You don't need to be nervous. I'm not here today as your boss.
I'm here for my baby.
Tong Tong, come here.
Meet the director.
Dad, if you adults need to exchange greetings, then exchange them.
Can you not disturb me?
I'm working on my emotions.
Eh, I'm sorry. My daughter is like this.
Whatever she does, she does seriously. Please don't mind.
Don't worry. I don't mind.
I really admire serious actors.
Xu Tong, if you're prepared, then let's start.
Are you okay?
Okay.
Xu Tong, please.
Xu Tong, please sit.
- Yes.- This woman has a lot of attitude. She's probably good.
I was worried before, but now I'm more reassured.
Uh... Xu Tong. The male lead is here too.
Why don't you guys read together? See how the feel is.
Okay, prepare on set.
Slate board.
5...4...3...2...
Enough already. I don't love you anymore. Do you understand?
Why are you being like this?
Why do you have to humiliate me?
Why do you have to humiliate our love?
Cut!
Uh, Xu Tong... Let's try it again, okay?
This time, let's try not to wail.
Add more affection, okay?
- Don't wail. - Yes - Use more affection?- Yes.
Fine, I can do that.
Okay, again. Prepare on set. Slate board.
Action!
Enough already.
I don't love you anymore. Do you understand?
Why are you being like this?
Why are you humiliating me?
Why are you humiliating our...
love?
Cut!
Xu Tong... Pretend you were dumped by your boyfriend of many years
and you feel betrayed.
The pain and anguish, do you get it?
Am I not in pain?
She seems very hurt!
Right, what I mean is that I hope that you can feel every word in your heart,
and then say it from your heart.
Do you understand?
I should say every word from my heart?
- OK. - Let's try again.
Slate board.
Action!
Enough already. I don't love you anymore.
Do you understand?
You... Why are you...
doing this?
Why...
are you humiliating...
our love?
Cut!
Uh... Xu Tong.
- Just now, what I meant by saying it from your heart...- Let me ask you!
What thing made you the most sad and angry?
The thing that made me the most sad and angry...
Why do I need to tell you?
You don't need to tell me, but please tell yourself.
Have you thought of it yet?
If you have, then please keep the thought in your heart,
and in a minute, no matter what happens, don't be interrupted.
Just bring your most sincere emotions and express them.
Director, let's try again.
Okay, let's try again. Get ready.
Hold on to me.
Action!
Enough already.
I don't love you anymore. Do you understand?
Why are you being like this?
Why do you need to break me?
Why do you need to break our love?
Good! Cut!
Why are you alone?
Where's your dad?
He's not here because he has other things to do.
Oh, so...
You and your dad ride in different cars?
Is it not allowed?
It's allowed.
Fine. Since we have to work together, let's make a good effort.
If you have any questions, we can talk about them and analyze them together.
Oh, right! I'm part of a theater group.
If you are interested in acting...
He Xiao Kang.
You really don't remember who I am?
Do we know each other?
It's a small world.
I never thought we'd have a chance to be on the same stage.
This time,
I will make you take notice of me.
Exactly who is she?
This style is really over the top!
♫ I just want to be in love ♫
♫ I want to be dazed ♫
♫ Weird spirits please get away from me ♫
♫ Away from Cloud 9 ♫
I thought that wasn't too bad just now, right?
Her emotions really popped out. Isn't that right?
- Not bad. - I definitely want Xiao Kang.
Right. The girl he brought wasn't too bad.
So that girl just now... Your phone.
We'll talk in a bit.
Hello Mom.
What? You're at the hospital?
Which hospital? I'll be right there.
Mom, didn't you say you were at the hospital?
This is...
Hi. We meet again.
This is a clinic no doubt.
It's where I work.
Mom, I don't have any interest in Miss Wu. Please stop trying to set me up.
You even tricked me to come over here.
I didn't trick you.
I didn't say anything. I just said that I'm at a hospital. This is a hospital alright.
I'm leaving.
Son, I'm worried about you.
If you don't like getting set up, then we won't anymore.
But is it embarrassing for me to see the doctor with you?
I'm totally fine. Why would I see a doctor? Mom, come on. Let's go home.
Hey.
Hello. I am Xia Yi Qing.
I've already heard about all your business from Zi Zi.
All my business?
What do you mean "all my business?"
I've also seen your movie. It was really touching.
I've seen it too.
So you tricked me to come here to see a psychologist?
Mr. Gao, I can see that you are a very respectful child.
You must hope that Gao Mama will be happy right?
Nonsense.
Then is it that hard to do one thing to make your mom happy?
Just think of it as having a chat with a friend. Let's go upstairs.
My son is very outstanding,
and is a very good son.
But right now he's sick.
Please help him.
Gao Ma, don't get excited.
Sit over there.
Actually, same-sex attraction isn't an illness.
Ding Ya loving someone of the same sex
doesn't mean that his personal cognitive systems have problems.
You guys are the ones with cognition problems.
Never mind. I only have myself to blame for this.
Fine, then let's be truthful.
Mom, believe me. I like women.
Really?
Are you positive you're being truthful?
But in the clip, you initiated it,
and you displayed your true emotions.
My true emotions?
And you were fearless.
Mr. Gao, I believe that you are a very brave person.
You even dared to admit it in front of Zi Zi, did you not?
That's right.
Gao Ding Ya admitted it in front of me.
Oh my!
This is so ridiculous.
Are you Bao Qing Tian*? And you summoned a witness? (*famous Chinese justice)
I'm sorry. I was just here to bring in some tea.
Gao Mama, cheer up!
Zi Zi, you can leave first.
Mr. Gao, I think you haven't completely identified yourself.
I know you love your mom.
Gao Mama summoned a lot of courage to sit here
so you don't need to be afraid.
You know, right now, there are a lot of countries, there a lot of people
that approve of homosexuals.
Compared to someone who cheats a lot, hurts a woman's emotions,
letting them believe that they're the only one,
now that is a bad man.
- Bad man? - That's right.
That type of person is sad and is what a true con man is.
You must know what I'm talking about.
Yes, I know.
Gao Mama, the world is different now.
Ding Ya loves you very much. There's no question about it.
I advise you not to hold onto prejudices.
In the movie, I could feel that he has love in his heart.
I really admire this kind of man.
Being like this…can he still be considered a man?
Of course.
Gao Mama, you should be happy that you have a good son.
His heart has love, his personality is warm,
and he loves his boyfriend. He's faithful to his partner and wouldn't cheat.
This is a good son. A good person.
A good son...
Thank you!
So you were kicked out of your house.
After we got home, my mom kept crying. No matter how I tried to explain it, it was no use.
Then my brother and sister-in-law came home and told me to move out first so that I would stop upsetting my mom.
I think that your brother and your sister-in-law are right.
There's a child in the house, so talking about this is inconvenience.
It's all that psychologist's fault.
The entire time, I felt like I was being forced. I couldn't refute it.
If I didn't admit I was gay, then I was a bad man.
So then that psychologist must have been pretty good.
That's not the point.
The point is... Admitting I'm a bad man is really hard.
So you don't think my problem right now deserves sympathy?
Hey... What are you doing?
Just take me in for now, please.
Stop pretending to be so pitiful.
Please.
Puppy eyes aren't helping?
No.
He Xiao Quan, are you or are you not my buddy?
I already pleaded. What more do you want?
You brought this on yourself.
Everything you're experiencing right now is called "deserved," and this was all started by you.
I was involved in this because of you and I haven't gotten my revenge yet, Gao Ding Ya.
Okay... Hit me while I'm down. I just changed my attitude.
I don't want to argue anymore. Goodnight.
What do you mean "goodnight?"
Don't sleep there. Get up! Come on!
I already said goodnight! You're being noisy! It's not like we haven't lived together.
Get up.
I don't want to.
- Go outside and sleep. - No, this sofa is very comfortable.
Then where will I sleep?
- Sleep together. - I don't want to sleep with you.
I have never slept on such a comfortable sofa.
Go sleep on the bar counter!
- Don't forget that when you desperately needed pants, I loaned you a pair of pants!- You loaned me a pair of women's pants!
Those were my pants!
Not too bad.
I'll take this one. Please wrap up the old clothes.
Here.
Also, please wrap up the other items I picked.
Thank you!
Lin Man Man!
Tao Xiu Qiong!
Here, hurry. Come in.
Come in! Here, let's put this away.
Thank you, thank you.
I just knew it! I make deep impressions on people.
We've already been graduated for so many years, and yet you still remember me.
Of course I remember you.
Throwing the embroidered ball.
Why are you getting so close?
Oh my! How much do you hate yourself?
- I...- You...
Look at your crow's feet!
They look too old for your age!
And your hands!
Look, they're so ill-kept!
Ding Ya
Why don't you answer your phone?
Your husband is calling you to go home and cook dinner?
It's my son.
You have a son?
What else?
How old is he? He probably has a girlfriend.
Are you already a grandmother?
Wow, you have a grandchild?
Why do you look so sad?
You're not picking up your son's call?
Did something happen to your son?
My son has no problems. You have a problem.
Why are you saying I have a problem?
I just asked about your son.
You don't need to ask about my son.
Why are you so mean?
I am mean. What about it?
Nothing. What's so precious about a son?
I don't even want to ask anymore.
Even if you ask, I won't answer. Okay?
Whatever you say.
How baffling.
- Hey...- What do you want?
What's wrong with you? This is mine.
Please. It's been so many years.
You didn't grow taller, but your temper sure did.
I've already said it many times.
Your life right now is too monotonous.
Quickly find something that you can devote yourself to. Work. Work is the fastest.
Find a housewife to be a full-time housekeeper.
We want to implement what Xiao Qian just said about the feeling of happiness.
Your face doesn't have clues. Only I understand the feeling of sadness.
The Mask, by Gary Chaw
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♫ Are you smiling? Are you crying? ♫
♫ I can't see ♫
♫ You want to break free, you want freedom ♫
♫ Aren't you tired? ♫
♫ Your expression, can you just ♫
♫ let me find some clues? ♫
♫ Don't be afraid, please hold my hand ♫
♫ Smiling with a mask on ♫
♫ Pretending you're strong, but you're actually more vulnerable ♫
♫ Don't let your face be filled with pain anymore ♫
♫ Just let it go ♫
♫ Let happy tears flow ♫
♫ Have sadness be completely removed ♫
♫ This world is waiting to be inspired by you ♫
♫ Everywhere in this world is inspirational ♫